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If I can’t see God, if I can’t feel him, hear him or understand him, if I seem to be going through life alright without his help, then is there really a god?
As much as I’m a Christian, and have been a church-goes for all of my life, there was a long-season where I might as well have attended church as though it was a social club. It was great. My life was great. I had what I wanted, and I was very comfortable. I did a lot of Christian things and said a lot of Christian things and I fit in with this “social group” that yes, centred around the person of Jesus, but looking back on my part I didn’t fully BELIEVE all of it.
That changed when I went through a difficult season when I was no longer comfortable. Suddenly it felt like God was demanding a lot more of me than I was willing to give, and in return he wasn’t really upholding his end of the bargain. It was then that I asked myself, “Is there really a god?” Have I been following something that was created by humans? To be honest, I scared myself having such a thought! It was so OUT THERE compared to anything I had thought. But this fear also drove my curiosity. If I was to truly live my life “for God” as we said then I wanted to know that I was going in with eyes open.
The following are some things that I discovered along my journey that has helped me come to my decision to follow Christ.
1. God is far bigger than I could comprehend.
And if He truly is God, that is to be expected. Part of God’s bigness, as I discovered, was that he has NO OBLIGATION to love me, but I have come to recognise His love in so many, in fact, ALL areas of my life. I understand that there are people that are put off by “the God of the Old Testament” that seems vengeful and quick to anger. For me, it’s all the more reason to see that while I am constantly making mistakes and committing sins, God’s grace is enough for me. There are logical explanations for what some people perceive as God’s “multiple personalities” in the Bible, but that’s another post for another time. What I am trying to highlight is that I’ve learnt that God loves me whether I recognise it or not. And being God, that is to be expected. It is on me to take off the blinkers to recognise his extravagant love.
2. The historical Jesus is an account that can be trusted.
No other historical figure has come under such intense questioning as Jesus has. But the facts point to Jesus really existing and really being crucified. The resurrection is hard to prove as science does not allow it. But examine the facts around Jesus’ resurrection while keeping an open mind and you’ll see that it takes a lot of faith to believe that Jesus did not rise from the dead.
If Jesus rose from the dead, then we have a problem. It’s too fantastic an event to ignore. His claims to deity is given a serious boost. And if Jesus’ claim to being God is backed up by the resurrection, then what he says needs to at the least be examined. For the first Christians, they got to see the evidence first hand, which led many of them to give their lives for their belief in Christ. Check out what Emperor Nero did to Christians. His actions nearly wiped Christianity from the face of the planet. But it didn’t. Historians marvel at how Christianity has survived wave after wave of persecution yet stands strong. My guess is that the early Christians couldn’t shake the facts. Time has faded these facts from our consciousness but they are still there if you choose to examine them.
3. Without God, humanity spirals.
The tenets and anchor points of civilised society are entrenched in Christian principles. They are principles that we can trust in because they are not anchored on movable human ideas but rather on an unmovable God who created us this way. No moral argument holds any weight if its beginning is in what I think or I treasure in the moment. Look at the way society shifts, and it’s value system changes. These shifts and changes have been quickened over the last 50 years as we become increasingly secular. We move away from God and our moral are now subject to our subjective experiences and thoughts. I fear that as this continues on in the light of technological advances, we will have no secure moral code to hand over to our children and grandchildren.
But I’ve learnt that we have a moral code because there is an anchor point beyond humanity. It sits outside of our subject humanity so that we can depend on it to point us in the right direction. That moral code is derived from God and that gives me the confidence to know right from wrong.
These 3 points helped me find my bearings in the search for God. I found that my faith in God is NOT subjective. It is grounded and it gives me confidence and hope for tomorrow. I pray that you continue your search and that God continues to guide it.